So the question is why do I want to start a blog.... one that I intend to use for at least this season of my life. Well I am not sure, really. Christmas Eve is upon me and I am sitting here wondering how Christmas will be without getting to see family on Christmas Day. I will see them Saturday... but it is just not the same. And if God does one day decide to send me to some other country or even across this one then a time may come when I cannot come to them and their position has become so regressed that they are seemingly not even able to come to me now.
What I do not want is this 'blog' to be something that I start because I am bored. (although today I find myself in such a state) I would say that fitting "mission statement" begins to formulate within the context of who I am today and who I am called to be as a Christ follower who has been called to risk it all in obedience for the glory and salvation of Christ. I would say that, typical to America middle class life, I struggle with a search for "something more" I learned a word while in Brasil, and I apoligize in advance to the Brasillians if I don't not understand the cultural implications of the word; however, what I know is that the word is unique and perhaps describes my seemingly isolated dilemma.
The word is Saudade and is used to describe a feeling of longing for something that one is fond of, which is gone, but might return in a distant future. It often carries a fatalist tone and a repressed knowledge that the object of longing might really never return.
Saudade has no direct English translation; its translation is dependent on context. It originates from the Latin word solitatem (loneliness, solitude), but developed a different meaning. Loneliness in Portuguese is solidão (a semi-learned word), from Latin solitudo. Few other languages in the world have a word with such meaning, making saudade a distinct mark of Portuguese culture. It has been said that this, more than anything else, represents what it is to be Portuguese.
In his book In Portugal of 1912, A.F.G Bell writes:
| " | The famous saudade of the Portuguese is a vague and constant desire for something that does not and probably cannot exist, for something other than the present, a turning towards the past or towards the future; not an active discontent or poignant sadness but an indolent dreaming wistfulness. |
So you are probably thinking, "Thanks, John for the history lesson. But what are you getting at?"
First, let me define this saudade within the context of my life. It is not something that I find myself in doubt its existence: For I have tasted it and am intoxicated with its holiness. It is the life that I have not attained and will not attain this side of eternity. So I have begun with a taste and I know that one day I will find perfection. A beginning and then perfection; yet, that must mean that their is some sort of transition from the taste of a heavenly gift and a life fully given in pursuit of such perfection. I long to be complete.
i.e. Well... have you ever gotten the feeling that people simply do not have the same philosophy of life as you? Well I have and it is almost as though the eyes have been closed to the truth of the condition of the world. Life is all about them. And they are blind to the vast darkness that covers the earth. Perhaps they are not ingnorant of such truth by their own accord, yet are they without fault?
To be completely transparent, I have been just as blind. Yet, now I fell as though I must communicate to such a people the folly of their way, in love and for a world that lies desolate in darkness. Western society has the mindset of consumerism and a life that is given to me for my own use. It plagues an American Christianity full of hypocrisy and darkness.
"So", you might be thinking, "John you are going to take on the entire American people, eh?" ha ha ha.... well I would be foolish to think that I am the ONLY person who such revelation has been given. Nevertheless, I am resolved to not be "settlin' for less than something more"
Mission Statement:So if I had to sum this up in a few statements the would follow:
- Jesus calls the me to live according to a radically different definition of success than the rest of the world. (This world defines success on how much, how big, how great)
- Jesus calls the church to live according to a radically different definition of success than the rest of the world.
Asian believers say this and I type it now:
"We've have noticed that many westerners tend to very excited and motivated by numbers, but we are not. Our goal is nothing less than the completion of the great commission so that the Lord Jesus Christ will return for his bride to bring all human history to moment in Scripture where voices are heard in heaven proclaiming 'The kingdom of the world has become the Kingdom of our Lord and of His Christ and He will reign forever and ever. That is our goal and purpose and we are willing to do whatever it takes to fulfill that goal and vision and be obedient to that calling.
I'm settlin' for nothing less than something more.....